Three Month Check In

This week I had my three month check up with my medical oncologist. Last week I had a PET scan so we got to talk about all the things going on inside of me. The good news is that I show no signs of cancer activity. There is a lot of scar tissue in my chest, but that was expected. I've the next few months and years they will be monitoring the scar tissue and other parts of my body for any signs of recurring or new cancer.
So, that was a huge relief. Now that the worst is hopefully over I have so many feelings I am working through. It kind of feels like I stored up all these feelings I was too exhausted to feel during treatment and now I have to watch out or they will crush me. It's scary to have part of your life taken over by circumstances out of your control. It makes you appreciate how fragile life really is. I think my biggest hurdle now is the future. I don't feel as sure about the things I thought I wanted as I did a few months ago and I can't decide what to do about it. Sometimes there are no easy answers. What I do know is that I will figure it out.
Also, about 3 weeks ago I got a dog. His name is Xandar and I love him already. He is already an adult and trained so we get to hang out and have good times. Today he had his hair trimmed. He is all worn out.