Hair loss started today. It's just like I read about. My head gets itchy, I stratch at it, I remove a couple hairs. I've been feeling it for a few days actually. Right now it's just a little thinning, I think it won't be noticeable for a week or two. But it's definitely happening.
Otherwise chemo just has made me feel kind of sick to my stomach and really tired. I sleep all night and then I manage to fit in a long nap in the afternoon. I sleep at least as much as my year old nephew, maybe a little more.
Also, there is random pain. For example, the inside of my mouth aches, and my neck hurts (mostly because it's been the victim in my recent surgical adventures). I also get little aches other places, but I sort of sleep those off.
Eating is hard. I'm always sick feeling and some food that used to be good is now disgusting. For whatever reason I've been really liking bean burritos. I never imagined having those on my favorite foods list, but it's pretty much the only food I legitimately enjoy eating right now. Most food is still pretty good, but bean and cheese burritos are like eating cake without the calories. At least in happiness level.
The hardest thing is that I keep pretending that I'm going to wake up feeling good, and I just haven't. It's not too bad yet, not nearly as bad as they described, but it really isn't fun.
It's also difficult not having anything really purposeful to do. This started when I wasn't working, and while I'm grateful I don't have to go to work I miss having scheduled responsibilities. It's hard to motivate yourself to get up and going when you don't feel awesome and you have nothing to do and nowhere to go. I am working on some little art projects, and that's fun. It keeps me thinking actively at least. And I think about riding my bike a lot. Sometimes I even look longingly at the bikes from my window. But then I go out and run a few errands and by the time I'm done it's time for another long nap.
Otherwise chemo just has made me feel kind of sick to my stomach and really tired. I sleep all night and then I manage to fit in a long nap in the afternoon. I sleep at least as much as my year old nephew, maybe a little more.
Also, there is random pain. For example, the inside of my mouth aches, and my neck hurts (mostly because it's been the victim in my recent surgical adventures). I also get little aches other places, but I sort of sleep those off.
Eating is hard. I'm always sick feeling and some food that used to be good is now disgusting. For whatever reason I've been really liking bean burritos. I never imagined having those on my favorite foods list, but it's pretty much the only food I legitimately enjoy eating right now. Most food is still pretty good, but bean and cheese burritos are like eating cake without the calories. At least in happiness level.
The hardest thing is that I keep pretending that I'm going to wake up feeling good, and I just haven't. It's not too bad yet, not nearly as bad as they described, but it really isn't fun.
It's also difficult not having anything really purposeful to do. This started when I wasn't working, and while I'm grateful I don't have to go to work I miss having scheduled responsibilities. It's hard to motivate yourself to get up and going when you don't feel awesome and you have nothing to do and nowhere to go. I am working on some little art projects, and that's fun. It keeps me thinking actively at least. And I think about riding my bike a lot. Sometimes I even look longingly at the bikes from my window. But then I go out and run a few errands and by the time I'm done it's time for another long nap.
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